You know it sad

You know when you know someone have a broken heart but you still do and say thing even hurt the person more and the pain can never heal anymore...

How can you do this to me? Do you know how painful it is? You told me you won't have any relationship and want to study? But what is this now? It hurt so bad and so painful... Wow this is really sad you know? Can blog with my computer or I blog with my phone. So painful... This suck... So heartless... God dam it got tears coming out of my eyes... Shit...

So...what now?

So what now? Should we just let it be? Or should try to care? hahaz silly right? Once everything u love come crashing down on u what will u do? There is this gal in facebook her status put "Once a boy hurt a girl, the hatred would last forever" this line really make me a little bit mad or should i say angry? I keep thinking why everyone must think that is always the boy who hurt the gal but not the gal who hurt the boy? So this is what I wanna say "Once a girl hurt a boy, the pain will stay forever" Yaya I know, most of u guys will think I'm talking crap or something.But all this time I still love her no matter how much pain she make me feel, guess I'm crazy? Yes this love do hurt and this pain do kill, but I'm still fighting. They are right that love is blind and love songs? Why do love songs always have happy ending when there is so many broken in the world? Human mind do play trick on them ^^ and that suck to the max really. See, u love this person n that person know it will hurt u a lot if he/she ask u to don't love he/she but he/she just do it anyway. Why do human love to hurt each other just to many them self happy? Really why? And also when u know that this person don't love u n why u still love that person still? What is love? Really what the fuck is love? (Sorry if I use the word *fuck but really using fuck in one line real sound better^^) Can someone tell me what is love? I really don't get it. Do love mean u gonna hurt someone the love you so god dam must? Or love that person back? Yes I do have 5-ex but the 5th? She is the one I still in love with, and I don't care even she don't love me or what. All I want is her to know that no matter how hard or sad anything can be, she still have me to be there for her. Why do people do so many silly and crazy stuff just to proof to the very person that he/she love he/she? I don't get it and I guess I never will. Time to change ^^ I still rmb that time when I still working, I had learn a lot. Like not to give up, and don't cry for someone that won't cry for you. I will not fall again, Whatever you say or do won't break me, all you do is just make me stronger ^^ A new me, a new Raymond Low is on the way^^ time to get ready for school next year^^ Fuck love! I wanna study^^ Some of my friends go sec5, some go ite and a few retain? Never mind guys! No matter where u are or which school u studying in just rmb nv give up! hahaz wow its a long post 2day^^ happy^^ my blog won't die le yeah!!! hahaz feel like buying ipod nano now? Dono should get it or not -.- anyway that all for now^^ coz now 4plus le -.- and is am! hahaz tired^^ that all^^

[You give up? but you never even give in]
[No fear, no pain]

Every night turns to day, and every one has to change

Yah, my blog aint dead yet. Its just the owner had been under going some changing in the mind and growing up, so it will be better for life hahaz.

I found out a lot things have change. Since after the break up, not only she n me had changed even all my friends around me had change. I guess I still need to change too? Life is boring when things start to change. I still dono will all this changing is good or bad, but I'm just going to live my life as who I am n wat i love to do.I keep telling my self to hold my self tgt and nv fall a part ever again.

14dec:
Its was a fun day^^ enjoy it^^

Meet kenneth at inter then wait 4 mandy n soon heng. When waiting was talking a lot with kenneth. Its have been so dam long since we meet hahaz and dam he change too hahaz grow up le lo win le lo hahaz jking jking. After that mandy came then we 3 wait for that soon heng hahaz. Then he reach le we all when to posb bank, i go atm take money hahaz. Then kenneth, mandy n me need to wait for soon heng coz he dont have the the atm card so he need to counter take money, so dam long! hahaz. Crap around then is off to orchard! Went to taka to eat kfc -.- after eating we 4 walked to ion hahaz, soon heng wanna buy his stuff but end up dont have hahaz, KARMA! then is my turn to buy my stuff then need walk from ion to orchard central. When walking there we talk a lot n CRAP A LOT hahaz. On the way we went to 313 somerset, walk around then mandy brought her book there then is off to orchard central. Reach there 1st thing is to find the shop that gt sell my skullcandy(its a headphone -.-) then found the shop, brought my stuff then soon heng say want go iluma play a not then everyone ok so is off to iluma. In iluma we go arcade. I wanna play tekken but there de arcade dont have! WTF!? an arcade with out tekken? It sux to the max la! then walk around hahaz then is off the marina. On bus we joked around hahaz, and just as i finally can sit down then found out that the bus stop that we are going to stop is just the next one then i sian lo win le lo hahaz. At marina we all walk around to find a shop i wan hahaz, i brought rakuwa? Its something like help ur blood de thing and like ur neck pain or wat then can wear lo hahaz I just wanna let my dad wear 1st coz he now keep working till nite hahaz. After that we went to city hall, soon heng found his stuff n brought it. We went to suntec to meet seng jie coz he now working my last time de job, selling toys -.- then go carrefour find him then we all buy drinks then mandy wan go home then we 4 pei her go bus stop wait 4 bus oso (see u so lucky hahaz jking) then her bus come then she when home. We 4 just go back suntec walk walk lo hahaz was fun^^then seng jie brought his new phone sony ericsson aino(see la happy le hor hahaz horny a-hole hahaz). After all that he sign out from work then we go eat dinner and dam is like 10 plus when we done hahaz. Walked back to city hall there take bus. In bus talked crap and all hahaz, soon heng when down 1st then seng jie then kenneth and I'm the last one hahaz reach home, bath use com try out my headhpone(love it) chat in msn and use till 4 plus and off to slp -.-

End of 14 dec

Note to ppl:
Her,u now change le,i try not to love you but i cant.but wat u tell me just now in the sms really hurt but i guess his someone better?hahaz

Kenneth,yo dude know you for abour 9 years le hahaz finally now c u grow up n not so kid kid anymore hahaz

Soon heng,pls stop molest ppl ok?hahaz police will find u!

Seng jie,good luck with this job and everyone know u love my job which is ur job rite now but u dont have to tell everyone when u c them hahaz

Mandy,change la hahaz dont vampire le la hahaz change to batman oso can hahaz

Dad,i know u wont c this i know that u dont even know i gt blog hahaz but anyway thx really.wat u told me that nite really make me wake up,it open my mind to think.this time must grow up le cant just fool around anymore. i'm not going to back down anymore its time to proof to them wat i'm! thx dad wat u say really help me a lot^^ happy to be ur son.

End of blog!