Dumb thinking, dumb thought

Hey everyone! Ya I know it's been long since I blogged. Okay the reason is very sample, I'm sick! Yes I'm still sick now but just to keep my blog alive I will just post something.

I got food poisoning! Yes and it's about 2 weeks already yet I'm only feeling a little bit better. Well just hope I can recover fast and soon! And guess what?! I finally got my Skullcandy G.I headphone! Gosh I'm so happy! Alright gonna end my post here I guess. And now I quote "It's better to lose time with your friends than to lose them within time."

Oh ya, you know what? You just think too much, how many times must I tell you that I don't like her and I just treat her as a sister? You just think and worry too much, if you are that afraid that one day me and her will be together? Well you are totally wrong! First you got to get you thinking right, I will never ever like her! Still worry then tell her you freaking! Don't blame me for anything cause you are the one keeping you mouth shut! And if you are unhappy with me just tell me, I'm sure we can talk it out. You know what, she told me a lot about you and I wanted to tell you but since you are like that so I guess no point helping you to win her.

Drunk Over Love

Hey guys! Finally, it's another update on my freaking blog! And yes that photo you are seeing now is from my prom night! Which I enjoy a lot! But too bad that I sprained my freaking ankle which hurt like a bitch now! But in the end, I still have all my friends around me and I really had fun last night.

I love it when it turn into clubbing at the end of the prom and everyone just start dancing like crazy. I did try to join everyone but till to my ankle, I can't do a shit but stand and watch everyone. But lucky Millie let me play with her DSLR which her rent and also what I enjoy! Took a lot photos, well not me alright!

Today, was going to meet Kevin & co for his belated birthday but till to my ankle I can't make it. Really wish I was there, dam I'm a clumsy ass. Oh ya one more thing, guess what?! I know her answer already, she say her feeling is just friends and tell me to give up? Well I don't know what to do anymore, just gonna like time pass by I guess? Last update, I love to say this word "Buttslut" I don't know how I come out with it but I like calling people Buttslut! Gosh I don't know what happen to me. Did I change? Well I don't know really. Okay guess I will end my post here, love you guys!

And now I quote "This is goodbye since I'm nothing in your eyes"

I'm a fool with dreams

Hi guys and girls! Yes I'm back from where from MIA, I think a lot and did a lot when I'm MIA. Well not really gonna blog much today I guess? Just wanna make my blog alive, at least it's better than being dead?

Well prom night is just 3 more day! Hope everything go as planned and not mess up? They change the theme and I end up re-buying my outfit for prom which suck to the max! Oh well I already got it so no point complaining I guess?

Life is great for me somehow? It's weird but I'm starting to like the new me slowly? Oh ya just a quick update about me, I call guys dude now and I call girls babe. So ya get over it alright?

And of course, how can I left out my love life! Well I don't know who will read about my love life, but I just wanna say it out than just keeping inside. And yes, I do have feeling for her but I don't know if she feel the same way too. I do think about her 24/7 but I don't know if she do the same too. Just take things slowly? Well to tell the truth, I already know the ending, okay maybe not I know but I feel? I feel that she and me won't have a happy ending? Just keep having the feeling I won't get her. I really wish she will tell me if I stand a chance or not. But I can't rush everything I guess, just take things slow and see how it go.

Yes, I'm a fool with dreams and that dream is that I hope can get her which will never come truth. Okay I'm thinking at the wrong side of the road now. And now I quote "I swear that I will be all you need, don't give up on me"

I've Always Been Your Favorite Game

Hey, what sup guys and girls? Well not gonna blog today, just wanna tell you all something. You see, I'm sick and tired of this world, so I'm gonna take a break from this. Away from money, away from love. Just wanna take a rest and slow down my foot step and try not to update myself with the world.

Not everything in this world is what you want and what you need, so love me for who I am not what I should become. I'm slowing down now, no longer that hardcore, wild me no more. Just a guy trying to do what's best for him and trying to enjoy every moment he can. Of course something happen that make me wanna do do this.

So I'm going to MIA now till friday, anything just text or call me. If you are lucky then I will reply, if not then it's too bad I guess. I don't know how to say this but I hate being someone that I'm not just so you can have it your way.

And now I quote "Open your eyes and see what it means to feel compassion and live in love". So ya I'm gone for now I guess. Bye

My Life Ain't That Colourful

My life ain't that colourful. It's full of this thing call "Love". I have the feeling that I don't even stand a chance, don't even suit her and yes the last thing is that I feel that there's someone better for her.

I know it's rare for me to be in my downfall with "Love", it really got the best of me. My friends keep telling me that I stand a chance and I can get her, but I just don't think I stand a chance at all, I don't know how much longer I can do this. "Love" really hit me kinda of hard this time, really suck to the max. "Love" suck big time.

And now I quote "When we're young we're so naive. It never ends unless you seek the beauty hidden underneath."

My Smile Just Disappear

Hey, how's it's going? Well I won't be blogging about m daily life again. Guess I just feel that my life is just an another boring story.

I'm a mess now, I just really hope I know the answer if we will be together or not! I know it take times but time is killing me! Lately I'm losing everything, my smile, my hope and my mind. Back to the "EMO" me now, just hope this "EMO" me won't stay for long.

My feeling are truth, my love is real. I sometime ask myself that do I have a chance? But my mind, heart and feeling tells me that I don't. I guess it's weird for me to blog about love. I will stop here for now, I really need some help or someone to talk to now. Guess not?

And now I quote "If only you know"

Ride the wind

Hi, what's sup with your life lately? I'm fine, well I guess I am? Still looking for jobs which is a pain in the ass! Been going out for like 3 god dam weeks already! Really need to find a job now! I'm jobless! Which is what I'm worry about now! Okay, another thing that I'm worry about, is LOVE! Well let's just say I'm in love with someone now okay? But I got a feeling that, there's no happy ending or happy ever after for us

I'm kinda back to my "EMO" self again! Which is a part of me that I hate the most! Look at my FaceBook status now! It's always "EMO"! Guess this love really got the best of me?! Well my life is now a black and white mess! I'm picking up and cleaning up all the mistake that I did, all the mess that I created! This really suck, you know that?

Okay, let's stop talking about love now alright? On my friends side is great, well I guess it okay too? Only thing is that I learn that friends who choose side are really big ass hole! They are friends that you should not keep! Trust me, I see the world from an outsider view!

Family is alright and I love my parent till the very end, is truth that sometime we do dislike what each other do something but hey, you can't change which family you are in right? Recently my dad said I grow up, he said that I understand the world better, no longer that small kid that is anti social anymore! That really make my day when my dad told me that but in the end he scolded me for keep going home late and keep on using the computer till late at night. But still I love my parent!

Oh! Just an add on, for those who really know me will know that I'm a Satanism. Well I promise her that if we are together I will give up as a Satanism, which is a big step for me cause I always believe in Satan. Some of my friends ask me why I will do that for a girl, well it's all about love. Love can change a man and love can also kill a man, that's all I can say. Hey that could be a quote! Alright! I did it again! Okay I will end my post here, hope you guys enjoy your day, everyday!

And now I quote "Less Emo & more Rock N Roll"