The Bleeding Never Stop

It's been so long since I last blogged and wow! 2012 already?! Time passes by kind of fast don't you think? It's April now and yet I hope it is the end of the year already.

Today I wanna ask all of you something, be it passer-by or just some random alien reading my blog.

Have you ever feel neglected? Like you feel as if you're the only person in this world with 7 billion people in it that understand how you feel? Well I do, sometimes I wish things will turn out as how I want it to be even if its just for once.

I put up a wall around me cause I don't want to get hurt by words. Sometimes you may not realize how much your words can hurt someone even if it just one word. Like "reliable", it makes me feel like all this time the things I do well in fact all the good things that I did never really make anyone happy even if they remember it. Cause they never react like they're damn happy or they appreciate what you did. But when I do one thing wrong wow its like the world is against me for some reason.

I wish I could feel that love, being able to fall asleep with your lover in your arms or cuddling with each other while watch some movies and maybe spam photos till like no tomorrow. Those sweet innocent young love is what I really wish for but we can't rewind cause we gone too far.

人类如果没有心脏那就好了
受伤不会流血 悲伤也不会流泪

Love

Love and relationships are never like the movies no matter how much we want them to be. But when something beautiful ends, for whatever reason, it's most important not to be disappointed that it's over, but glad that it happened at all.

Sometimes, we just have to let go of someone who matters to us not because we have to, but because it’s the right thing to do. Let us remember that we can’t force anyone to love us. We can’t beg someone to stay when she/he wants to leave or be with someone else. This is what love is all about.

However, the end of love is not the end of life. It should be the beginning of understanding that everything leaves for a reason, but leaves with a lesson.

My gift is my love for you

It's a little bit funny, this feeling inside me
I'm not one of those who can easily hide this feelings.
But I don't have much money but girl if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
My life is wonderful with you around
And you're the sweetest thing I've ever seen
I love you girl cause someone like you come once in a life time ;)

You Should Have Killed Me When You Had The Chance

The writings on the wall, you've read that I'll be gone, but if you call my name
Just know that I'll come running, for one more night to spare with you
This is where I'm meant to be, please don't leave me

I walked into your house this morning
I brought the gun from our end table
Your blood was strewn across the walls
They'll find you on your bathroom floor when I'm done

But should I write it all off?
You should have killed me when you had the chance

I just wanna run

I just wanna run, hide it away
Run because they're chasing me down
I just wanna run, throw it away
Run before they're finding me out
I just wanna run...

That shine that spark

You tought us what it means to live and we will think of you everyday, we will never forget you. Here's to you and we will raise our drinks one last time, I never tought I'd have to say this, I never thought i'd have to say goodbye. One life lost a thousand memories fade in, your memory will never fade in mine

You opened your door to show me there was hope so I'll take it and run to show the world so they will know your fire won't burn out and I hope heaven needs you more then I do now.



We love you.

Behind the scenes

She means the world to me. Wanna tell her that she's beautiful, and show her that she's loved. Hold her hand when she's scared, tell her how much I care.

Side To Side

What I love about you girl is you just wanted to be my girl, never had another care in the world never begging for diamonds and pearls. Damn I love your smile and your hair when it curls, all I wanna do is take your picture no make up on.

With money you can buy

With money you can buy a house, but not a home

With money you can buy a clock, but not time

With money you can buy a book, but not knowledge

With money you can buy medicine, but not life

With money you can buy sex, but not love.

Dedication

You'll never really find those perfect words.
Something more than just "Goodbye."

It's hard to remember the good times when there's just so much heartache,
but they deserve more than that.
They deserve more than just one single moment of sadness.

So just remember that when there's enough love in our hearts
To burst like a fucking supernova
And there sure is enough love in our heart to smile that famous smile.

We all lose someone at some point in our lives,
but don't ever let go of that smile.

Hold on forever. Because that's our final dedication

Cats

This is this cat.
This is is cat.
This is how cat.
This is to cat.
This is keep cat.
This is a cat.
This is dumbass cat.
This is busy cat.
This is for cat.
This is forty cat.
This is seconds cat.
* Now go back and read the THIRD word in each sentence starting at the top.

Chris Medina - What Are Words

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

[Baby, this is the song from me to you. I know what's going on but I ain't gonna say anything. I love you, lets fight the past together]

I'm not that dumb as you think I am

I have eyes to see, I got heart to feel and I got a brain to think. I'm not as dumb as you think I am. I know what's going on, is just I don't wanna say anything much.

I have my side of the story I want to tell you but sometime I feel like is the best not to tell you now. I don't wan cause of what I feel, change the both of us. I really really am trying my best.

I really really want us to turn out what we want. I really love you and I'm not giving up. Sometimes I just wish you would tell me what going on your mind. I wish that person can get away from our life.

I love you and it will always stay that way, but today for the very first time I got a feeling that you gonna leave me. Not sure why I feel this way, maybe I'm crazy or I think too much.

I still love you and today is us being together for a week and I really want us to last. Guess I just scare of losing you, scare of losing what we have.

And now I quote "Sometimes I wish I never knew the truth behind this door"

This Is Our Story Now

Finally, I can tell everyone that I'm no longer single. I'm taken so is my heart by this girl call Claudia Tan Shu Min. We are together now which makes me real happy. I finally understand what true love means again.

Girl, I won't let you down. I will do my best in anyways just to show you my best and make you happy. I know we have our past, a past that we can hardly forget but hey look at us now. It's no longer your world or my world but it's our world now, so girl let's do this together okay? We can pull this off, we can fight for what we believe.

Girl, let the damn bitch be the ghost of our past. It's no longer what you have to face it anymore, I will face it with you. You don't have to be alone to walk this road anymore, cause I'm walking it with you.

I promise not to disappoint you and I won't break that promise. I won't let go of this love, and girl let's fuck the rest cause we the best. I love you baby, I really do and I mean it.

And now I quote "This is a new chapter now, let's write it together ♥"

What Become Of Us

Hey, you guys may think so fast? I'm back again blog? Well something just happen. You see she ask me to let go yet again. And somehow I guess I become a main sources for her pain?

She want us to be friends? Cause she afraid to hurt everyone in this situation. Well I will still love her, still adores her, still miss her, still be fighting for her, still not letting go of this love I have for her and lastly I will still be waiting for her.

If being friends is what she really want then I will do it I guess? I won't be happy but at least she will be. As long as she smile again, that's all that matters to me. I will still wait, I have nothing to lose anymore. This time I'm doing this alone, I won't give up on this.

If she ever hurts you tell me, cause I won't like you be treat that way. I'm here for her, now and forever.

And now I quote "The fire in my eyes are still burning, my heart is still beating and my love for you ain't dying."

Wonder Of The Younger

Hello! Ya I know, it's long since I blog again? Well just to keep my blog alive here's a little post. Well school is great? Never been better I guess? Family are still strong as the same.

Well and my love for her? Let's just say that even Superman can't break it? My love for her is strong and I'm not giving up nor will I let go like this. I'm fighting for her and trying my very best.

I'm gonna treat her right. She deserve better, I won't make her sad nor will I make her cry. I love her and I'm still doing everything I can to show her that I'm worth it.

This time, I'm making a stand. No longer that old Raymond wishing for love to come but now I'm fighting for the love I want!

Will update soon, I promise

And now I quote "Something in my heart told me to tell you, I love you"

Bye

Hey everyone, ya I know it's been long since I last blog. Well I got a lot things to do, love is most of the part. She's the first girl that I felt so alive with, I know it's weird way to put it.

I guess this is goodbye again? Going MIA yet again, but I ain't giving up. I'm not giving out this love I have for her and I will fight till the end. I know this is the road she choose but I don't want her love to go to waste, I'm trying. I really am.

I know that I'm not the person she miss nor love, but she is the person I miss and love. So be it, this fight is on and this time I'm serious. How I wish her stead know how lucky "HE" is to have her. Well I'm waiting and I will be there for her till the end.

So this is it, goodbye and so long

And now I quote "I'm always the one, waiting for you message and missing you"

Nothing have change, I'm still the same

Wow, it's been long since I blog. So I'm posting something now. Okay now there's a news, I broke up with her. Well I don't care what people say about us, just act like I'm the one who have the feeling fade and let me be the bad guy of this story.

Well there's nothing much I could say now? Oh and I got warning letter from ITE, which sucks to the max. Oh well so be it. School is fine for the most of it which is a good thing I guess? Family still the same, awesome as always. Friends? Well Don't wanna think too much but I'm lucky that I have some true friends around me.

Alright I will blog till here, will update next time if I have the time. I'm moody lately, "EMO" is still on till now, hope this feelings of pain won't last.

And now I quote "I lost my smile today, so I fake a smile so no one will know"

To The Hell With IT

Hey it's me, I know I had not been posting anything lately? Too busy with life and love I guess. Still I'm here to blog about something? Well at least it's better than nothing right?

Okay I have a confession to make, I'm slowly becoming someone I hate. Don't ask me why cause I won't say! I'm liar, cheater and an asshole. I'm evil, no longer good and my mind is full of sick thoughts and shit.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm not too sure myself. All I know is that I'm alone talking to myself, so unsure if the good side of me or the bad side of me will take over.

Not sure what really happen that make me this way now. Maybe love? Life? Or school? Well to the hell with it. Screw this, I'm leaving this fuck up matter! Now I know that in this world many only think for themselves! I don't even know why I try so hard to make everyone happy and end up I becoming the sad one.

So fuck it, I'm gonna play from now on. Fuck you all! Don't try to get in my way if you don't want to get burn!

And now I quote "I don't give a fuck, I just came here to party!"

Space Between Us

Hey it's been long since I blog, but hey I'm here to update now. The love between us is up and down and I hate it. I want to make us last but how? I'm sad in 1 case is I just want us to be happy but how? And I wonder..

Not saying that I want to break but I don't want to break at all! But time after time she keep pushing me away and that feeling is fuck up! I know it's not her fault? But I'm already keeping this relationship of ours slowly..

And yet I just got push away over and over again. Can't I even hold her hand? Am I not good enough for her? The space between us is far and I'm trying my best to make every second count but how? The space between us is worst but it's not getting any better.

I just hope we can pull this through and last long as much as we can. I'm not giving up yet, I'm just having doubts for this love of ours.

And now I quote "This love never dies till the end of times"